Hi Patty,

12/4/2008 12:12:03 PM

In the future, please just stick to the "nature" of your addiction and not go in to detail about it. It can be a trigger for some people. Thanks.

I get a lot out of going to the Recovery meetings. I suggest you give them a try. I don't think you will regret it.

Me again.

12/4/2008 6:41:05 AM

Here's how bad I am. I went trolling thru the blogs to find stimulating stuff. But I stopped and I'm going to bed. I guess that's a victory, huh?

Stuck (Patty)

Toes 23

12/4/2008 5:25:23 AM

Hi Toes 23,

A couple of years ago I was so hooked on watching TV that I could see it controlling my life. I was renting collage dorm movies about sex and what not. I was renting TV series like 24, Lost, ect…. I was so engrossed into these TV shows because it was the only thing I could do to help me deal with my addiction to sex. It was a diversion of my attention so I didn’t have to think about my addictive tendencies. When my wife and I made love my mind was not on her but on the gi...

Stargazer you are not alone

12/4/2008 4:49:43 AM

Thank you Stargazer for sharing your struggles, I can relate to over eating. In my sex addiction it has been very important for me to look a certain way. I was going to the gym all the time and working out to stay thin. It didn’t occur to me that I have a problem with over eating. I could eat all I wanted and not gain weight. Now that I am not working out as much I have gained 15 lbs in the last month. I have had two heart attacks and if I don’t do something about it the next one may kill me. I ...

I am redefining my colors

12/4/2008 4:24:42 AM

Thank you everyone, Believe it or not I had a great day on Wednesday. After reading your posts I understand why I had a great day. Thank you so much for your love and caring about me no matter what I have done. My son has told me the same thing. I promise I will never give up no matter how hard it gets. I want to especially thank you Matrix for putting my name in the Temple. You have no idea what that means to me. I have been told that I can put my own name in the Temple, but that doesn’t have t...

im so sorry

12/4/2008 12:46:12 AM

We deal ourselves some hard blows sometimes. I still remember the single worst thing I have ever done. It was a real shocker to me, done completely out of spite and evil intentions. I went to a bad store which happened to have a bad club. I'd never done either before. Same as you, it lasted about 15 minutes before I was so sick I left weeping. I couldn't function well at all afterwards.
It could easily have become a gateway to greater and more frequent sin if I let it. What I did i...

prepare for going out of town

12/4/2008 12:07:24 AM

For an addict, at least for me and those I know, it takes an extreme amount of preparation to be "sober" while a spouse is out of town. It is still one of my biggest issues. I know my wife will be spending a couple of weeks with her family after Christmas and I will be all alone. It will literally take everything I have this month to prepare so that I don't slip when she is gone. I guess what I am getting at is don't be too surprised if he slips while you are gone. I'm not trying to excuse ...

I agree, it's hard to know what's normal difficulty and what's addiction stuff

12/3/2008 11:25:02 PM

I'm doing a lot better. About 8 weeks ago I started a new, overwhelming job and my recovery crashed (I am a compulsive overeater.) It took me 6 weeks of starting every morning to get back, but then failing. I began to despair, but then somehow made it through a clean day, and then another. I am the better for the relapse, because I seriously learned that it is not so easy to get back into recovery. That makes staying in recovery all the more important to me. I've had about a week and a half.

an additional testimony

12/3/2008 2:15:01 PM

I feel it as a blessing to have been disfellowshipped. It was the best thing that could have happened to me at that time. It really is a time to work on yourself. I would say: "Use It!" The brethern in high councils all over the world are there to help members to come closer to God. They are there to support. When they decide it is needed for you to be disfellowshipped, I would put my full trust in them and start working on myself.
Partly because of all the help you get while being disfello...

Correction about being tempted

12/3/2008 1:26:22 PM

I just made a comment above that the scriptures say we will not be tempted beyond what we can handle. But then I had second thoughts. Alma 13:28 says "But that ye would humble yourselves before the Lord, and call on his holy name, and watch and pray continually, that ye may not be tempted above that which ye can bear, and thus be led by the Holy Spirit, becoming humble, meek, submissive, patient, full of love and all long-suffering;"

This scripture clearly warns that we can be "temp...

Don't give up!

12/3/2008 1:12:30 PM

I know you said you just needed to vent, but don't give up, Scott! I've been feeling the same types of things. A friend in recovery told me "not to give up 5 minutes before the miracle." When I mess up, I feel a host of things like:
* I'm back at square one
* I haven't learned anything, even the things I thought I learned must not be true
* It has worked for others but it isn't working for me so obviously, I'm not doing what I need to do...I might as well quit
* and the si...

Scott,

12/3/2008 1:10:33 PM

One of the lies the deciever tells us is that now that we've had a slip we may as well give up. Don't believe it. I've seen you grow leaps and bounds. Lately, you've been great at sticking to the "nature" of the addiction, rather than the details. Scott, you also have the distinction of being one of the few who has taken all of the suggestions put before you. I find this incredibe... First you quit going to the gymn, then you stopped running, not only did you go to ARP but then you went to ...

You're good

12/3/2008 10:42:04 AM

I don't think you are to explicit at all. I really enjoy reading your post and how honest you are when you share with everyone.

Don't feel hopeless. Satan wants you to feel like you haven't made any progress, but in reality you you have made progress. I mean look back at yourself 2 or three years ago.. where you even able to admit you had a problem? So being completly honest with yourself you know that you are doing much better then you were. Satan just likes to make you think a...

True!

12/3/2008 10:09:28 AM

You explained it really well, Matrix. We learned this very thing in my pathophysiology class a couple weeks ago. What you said is exactly right! Depression is extremely common during a withdrawal period due to a lack of those neurotransmitters that make you feel good. Rest assured that Satan KNOWS this and will whisper lies like "it's hopeless" and "it's too hard." Your body WILL self correct and start producing the right amount of endorphines if you can just hang in there long enough. Our bodie...

You're Doing So Great

12/3/2008 9:22:01 AM

I've been praying for you so much, Scott, but as soon as I read this, I called the temple and put your name on the prayer roll. You've come so far and you're doing great but you will hit some bumps when in recovery. Sometimes they are small and easy to overcome and sometimes they are huge and take a lot more effort then we think we have. I know you have the strength to fight this because you always have strength to fight it, it's just a matter of relying on Heavenly Father more and working ev...

Testimony

12/3/2008 2:26:25 AM

I wanted to say that I share the feelings of installing windows, try the windows live onecare ;) but, I myself have just been disfellowshipped, and I feel that I do not want to build a grudge and allow it to fester like the adversary did. I pray that your Son will be richly blessed for your endurance, and your testimony is a beacon of light to us all. Thank you brother. May you and yours be blessed.

Thank you!

12/3/2008 12:17:50 AM

I can't tell you how much I appreciate your input. I have been praying for a long time but no answer yet. I am afraid to ask my husband what he has been up to lately. I am out of town for the next couple of weeks and I am afraid of what I will come back to. I wish I could put filters on the computers. My husband is the Director of IT for his company and must have full access at all times. Besides if he wanted to he could get around anything I set up. I definitely don't want to be his baby...

Addiction Recovery Group meetings

12/3/2008 12:07:27 AM

Many couples are in the same situation as you describe with Pornography. You can get help. Go to http://www.providentliving.org/familyservices/strength/0,12264,2873-1,00.html and click on Addiction Recovery Program. Then you will be able to read "Addiction Recovery Support Groups" Click on that and it will take you to areas all over the world that has support groups. At the bottom of the list you will read .. Frequently Asked Questions for Pornography and Addiction Recovery Groups, and clic...

if you are worried about offending while venting

12/2/2008 11:01:45 PM

you can just post in the loved ones section if you are worried about offending anyone. I think that many recovering addicts have developed thick skins, but if you are truly concerned try posting in the loved ones section since the recovering addicts won't see your post.

Free agency and choice

12/2/2008 9:32:00 PM

Nyronian

You have some great insight. To me your post was humble, yet taking responsibility for your actions. You know you have made a mistake, it is great to see someone take problems head on, just because things still need work doesn't mean you haven't made some progress.

So a question for us all, did the Prophet Joseph know what he was getting into before he came to earth? My personal opinion is yes, he knew exactly what he was getting into. Heavenly Father is not ...

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