just been alive
By skyteamst90
12/9/2010 10:04:58 AM
Just wanted to put, just been depressed + tired, with thoughts of suicide. I keep fighting but its overwhelming at times + ahas been today. I prayed but I never feel like that helps + reading scriptures never feel like it talks to me. Attitide they say helps, but when your mental, your just mental + broken. The missionaries are coming by to check on me. Its really a shame how bad things are. I wish I could have faith + belief like other people on here


You are like other people    
"Many people on this site feel just like you do. Our church culture (not the gospel) teaches that we should have only one emotion, Happy. That is soooo wrong. you are human you feel and that is a good thing.

Stop fighting and surrender. All you have to do is to be willing and God will do he rest. I know, it sounds so simple, but it's true.

Prayng for you today!

posted at 10:22:26 on December 9, 2010 by Anonymous
Depression makes it hard    
"That's all your depression talking. You can't fix the addiction while you're this depressed. Trust me, when I'm depressed to the level you are, I can't stay sober. When the depression gets under control then I have a fighting chance of dealing with my addiction and being sober. You HAVE to get help for the depression. Don't feel bad about needing help for depression. It's a disease, not a weakness. Look into meds. Look into counseling. Get blessings. Do whatever you have to do. Depression and addiction will both kill you, and both together will do it faster. I've been where I wanted to die, or at least wanted all the crap to go just go away, but now I'm looking forward to things again. My life isn't perfect. I still cry a lot and wish that things were different, but life is very definitely worth living and I have hope and faith."
posted at 12:10:49 on December 9, 2010 by dstanley
Sky you do have faith and hope    
"Or else you would not be here.
It is hard man I know, lots for me to be depressed about but lots more to open my eyes to.
I heared Pres Eyering last night say that for many years he would write down a few lines of where he saw Gods blessings in his life. Over the years he noticed that it was easier to see those small and seemingly insignificant blessings each day.
He was learning to see the bigger picture. I love that man.
I am going to do just that.

Lets both try it out and see how it goes?"
posted at 14:04:08 on December 9, 2010 by ruggaexpat
Just 5 little blessings    
"I sing the Hymn Count your Blessings! If I feel to bad to sing find it LDS.ORG and listen to it. My priesthood lead told me to write 5 things I am thankful for daily. Thankful journal. It was hard at first. Sky is blue, or I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, some food to eat, my dog likes me, ...... Say a prayer where you only give thanks.

Take head to the helping comments that are being shared here.
Love and prayers
posted at 15:41:39 on December 9, 2010 by Anonymous
thx 4 saying nice things    
"I'm just sick of fighting. I'm sick of being a loser. I'm sick of doing things people have said to get better, and it doesn't work or get better. It seems that I am stuck this way, broken + depressed. I have mental depression + its gotten worse. I have been to therapy, taken my meds, did an inpatient treatment, + applied what I learned...still me + still stuck. I wish it was as easy as just read your scriptures, say your prayers + go to church...but being excommunicated I guess is just that, cut off from the lord...I blew it so no coming back. So my sins + deeds forever separate me from the lord + feeling good about myself. Read d+c there is no hope anymore....I did this many times."
posted at 06:18:47 on December 13, 2010 by skyteamst90
There is always hope, my friend    
"...even just a glimmer. Hang on, brother. Find the one positive thing in your life and focus on that. Get to a meeting. You're not alone. I am depressed really bad right now, too. I feel "cut off from God" too. But I am pretty sure he still loves us. I firmly believe that people like you and I are not judged with the same kind of measuring stick as people who don't suffer with mental disease. There is hope for a better day if we just HANG ON."
posted at 16:44:15 on December 13, 2010 by Anonymous
"I will try....
---skyteam -or- wt"
posted at 17:26:11 on December 13, 2010 by Anonymous
"I will try....
---skyteam -or- wt"
posted at 17:37:18 on December 13, 2010 by Anonymous
Skyteam WT!    
"Hang on! We love you too!"
posted at 00:08:37 on December 14, 2010 by hero
No coming Back?    
"There is always a way, because of our Savior Jesus Christ. If you choose to bring yourself into total submission to the Lord and his will for you. You are never nor will you ever be separated from the Lord unless you choose it. Let Christ do the battle for you. He has already paid the price. BELIEVE!
Excommunication affects your standing in the Church of Christ. Excommunicated does not cut you off from the Saviors, Atonement, not you, not anyone.
Grab on to that WT, Skyteam. Grab on to the Atonement,

posted at 16:53:23 on December 14, 2010 by Anonymous
I understand    
"I understand feeling like nothing works. I've tried a ton of meds, and I'm not sure any helped except one. I will say that acting out makes my depression worse, and my depression makes my acting out worse. It is a difficult cycle. I tried DBT instead of traditional therapy and that helped me. It focuses on specific skills to do instead of acting out. Just a thought of what has helped me.

You are not hopeless. Christ's atonement applies to you and your sins. You can repent and return to full fellowship. Christ is always standing at the door knocking. You just need to open the door and let him in.

Hang in there. You can do this."
posted at 23:36:42 on December 14, 2010 by dstanley

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— Russell M. Nelson

General Conference, October 1988