Need to try something new
By donewiththis
12/13/2009 11:32:40 PM
I really really hate that this is a problem for me. It's something I've struggled with since before my baptism 5 years ago. I served a faithful mission with no problems, but since coming back, it's been an up and down struggle that continually leaves me feeling miserable and self-loathing. I SO want to be done with this! but everytime i feel like i'm making progress, it only takes a few weeks or a few months before i fall again. I really enjoyed reading some of the other blogs, so i decided this might be a good place to express some of the things i'm feeling. I'm so over this!!!


Kudos to You    
"You took a wonderful step by coming here. I promise that you will find peace and healing through writing and you will make connections that will help you turn your will over to Jesus Christ. The fact that you were able to serve a successful & faithful mission shows me that you were able to conquer & make some great strides & can continue to do so. I testify to you that TRUE happiness is found only through leaving the teachings of the Gospel & that the Lord's grace is sufficient for us to if we humble ourselves & lay our weaknesses upon His altar.

1 Corinthians 10:13"
posted at 01:18:37 on December 14, 2009 by needhelp38
You have so much going for you!    
"I wish I could have served a mission with no problems, but unfortunately, I couldn't even go a couple weeks in the MTC without acting out. I still finished an "honorable" two year mission, and I know I helped a lot of people, but I continue to struggle with the guilt I dealt with as a missionary who was addicted to lust, porn, and masturbation. I honestly envy you because of your experiences as a missionary; it has to feel awesome to know you served for two whole years without giving in to your addiction.

My addiction got much worse when I came home from my mission a year ago, because I let my guard down and became complacent. Fortunately, the Lord, my kind Bishop, and the 12-step program have helped me find recovery. As a struggling missionary, I would have never dreamed that I would become an honest and worthy member of the church, but the Lord has worked miracles in my life and believed in me even though I had trouble believing in myself.

You can do this! Recovery is possible for everyone who is willing to trust in the Lord!"
posted at 03:16:57 on December 14, 2009 by ETTE
How are you doing?    
"How have you been the past couple of days?"
posted at 01:30:04 on December 16, 2009 by needhelp38

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"You lived with your Heavenly Father in a premortal life. You were there with Him. Your spirit knows what it is like to live in celestial realms. You can never be truly happy in an uncelestial environment. You know too much. That is one of the reasons that for you, wickedness never can be happiness. What a great thing it is to decide once and for all early in life what you will do and what you will not do with regards to honesty, modesty, chastity, the Word of Wisdom, and temple marriage. "

— Larry W. Gibbons

General Conference October 2006