Clean for 9 days
By adrastos
11/14/2009 11:34:00 AM
I've been clean for about 9 days. I have to admit, my mind hasn't always been in the right place, but my home life is already starting to feel better. But I know I still have a long ways to go.

I've had an easier time staying clean since I committed to myself to be honest with my wife when I acted out. Before I didn't feel like I could really ask God for help when I wasn't being honest with my wife. I was trying to do it by my self.

But I've learned in my meetings, that when you start to get some sobriety under your belt, you'll start to notice your flaws more (probably because you are starting to get the Spirit back in some measure). I sure do have a lot of flaws.

I don't know if my wife reads on this website or not, but I wanted to let her know how much she means to me. Yes I want you more than this addiction, I want to return to the temple with you and keep returning. I want to live with our family forever. I love you.


Way to Go!    
"Good job, Adrastos.

Stay close to the site and post something when you need help...and tell your wife when you are struggling, BEFORE you act out. I've personally struggled with doing that, but I know it's the right thing to do. My wife would rather have me come to her saying, "I'm having a rough day controlling my thoughts," than, "I HAD a rough day...and did something I shouldn't."

When you fall down again, tell her immediately, then get right back up and keep going. View every temptation, every struggle as an opportunity for growth. You're a good man for trying to deal with this with God and with your wife."
posted at 12:26:53 on November 14, 2009 by BeClean
"KoooL!! You're doing great! It is one day at a time.

I like to do this silly thing where I have a dry board and I put 1 tick mark on it for every day that I am clear, but at the start of every day I erase it only to commit to myself to have 1 more day of being clean. The numbers start to add up, but I only see my 1 day commitment, it helps..."
posted at 13:03:53 on November 14, 2009 by Gondor44646
You're making great progress!    
"Nine days is a long time, but I think any amount of sobriety is nearly insignificant compared to the fact that you have been completely honest. I don't know if there's any doctrine to back this up, but I strongly feel that God is able to show more mercy to an honest person enslaved to addiction than to a sober person who constantly lies and tries to hide the past. I know this has held true in my own life in any case.

Keep it up, Adrastos, my prayers are with you."
posted at 17:46:53 on November 15, 2009 by ETTE

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"I need not define your specific problem to help you overcome it. It doesn’t matter what it is. If it violates the commandments of the Lord, it comes from Satan, and the Lord can overcome all of Satan’s influence through your application of righteous principles. Please understand that the way back is not as hard as it seems to you now. Satan wants you to think that it is impossible. That is not true. The Savior gave His life so that you can completely overcome the challenges you face. "

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