My First Post
By sonofgod
10/25/2009 1:32:28 AM
I've decided to overcome my addiction. I'm addicted to pornography & masturbation.

This has been ongoing for many years - and I want to be clean, and I'm ready to truly seek to be a lamb of the Lord. My life needs change, and I believe this institution is the perfect place to gain support & comfort in my time of despair.

I feel so terrible each time I falter - yet it seems I can never overcome my desires. Why is it that every time I choose evil - over the Lord? I know the church is true, and I know the Lord wants me to return to him again someday. I must keep the commandments - and make my life clean.

This is the my proclamation to the World that I do have an addiction - and I am willing to bring the Gospel further into my life to overcome it. I choose the Lord - and I am a child of God.

Thank you for your support,


My Quote    
"What turned my soul, was the following quote. Hopefully it can be beneficial to others in need.

“Some day, in the years to come, you will be wrestling with the great temptation, or trembling under the great sorrow of your life. But the real struggle is here, now…Now it is being decided whether, in the day of your supreme sorrow or temptation, you shall miserably fail or gloriously conquer. Character cannot be made except by a steady, long continued process.” – Phillips Brooks"
posted at 01:34:22 on October 25, 2009 by sonofgod
"I know you'll find what you're looking for here. From what I've seen during my short time on this site, those who recover are those who consistently post their experiences, regardless of their sobriety.

I've also put a lot of thought into your question, "Why is it that every time I choose evil - over the Lord?" The answer I've come up with for my own situation is that I'm not evil, I'm sick. I know I can't recover on my own, because I've tried and failed at it for the past ten years. I believe that the Lord will show me a way out of my sins and addictions if I humbly ask Him to show me what to do, and then follow the promptings I receive from the Holy Ghost.

Please continue to post your experiences, it sounds like your heart is in the right place and you have a desire to recover.

"Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled."
-Matthew 5:6"
posted at 11:15:16 on October 26, 2009 by ETTE
A comment from a Daughter of God    
"I love your name SON OF GOD!! You have divine worth. Heavenly Father wants you to be happy. I’m so glad you found this site…so many wonderful people are struggling, but are lifting up each other here.
My husband is addicted to porn and masturbation…it hurts more than I can say. Remembering that I am a DAUGHTER OF GOD….has brought me comfort when it’s seems I have nothing left. One thing that our bishop told my husband was…when we view pornography we are not only harming ourselves and our loved ones, but we are damaging the souls of the Sons and Daughters of God that we are looking at. That never really occurred to me…I just wanted to strangle the porn industry for ruining my life, but thinking of them as my Brothers and Sisters…makes me realize how important each of our souls is worth.
You deserve to be happy! Welcome Brother!!"
posted at 15:13:23 on October 27, 2009 by summer
I am new as well    
"And kudos to you for having the courage to make this change in your life. I am quite new to the site, but I have already found great comfort through the wonderful people here & through journaling my thoughts."
posted at 22:46:41 on November 5, 2009 by needhelp38

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"Nothing is beyond [Christ’s] redeeming reach or His encircling empathy. Therefore, we should not complain about our own life’s not being a rose garden when we remember who wore the crown of thorns! Having bled at every pore, how red His raiment must have been in Gethsemane, how crimson that cloak! No wonder, when Christ comes in power and glory, that He will come in reminding red attire, signifying not only the winepress of wrath, but also to bring to our remembrance how He suffered for each of us in Gethsemane and on Calvary!"

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987