Control Freak...
By Gondor44646
6/29/2009 2:18:58 PM
I guess I don't actually have step 1 down... When I said I didn't have control of my life it was the fact that it was because of my control that my life was completly uncontrolable. In other words... I control my life by not doing anything and avoid all the risks. Controling = passive-aggressive = perfectionistic = root of all my problems. I have to lose control, I see now why this is step 1, how unfortant that I didn't actually understand this. I have to lose control of my life and turn my will and agency to God.

I'm not doing well right now. Very depresed and no life after high school. This is my lack of action. I don't know what I want. and or I fear any chance to have it or risk it.


Thanks for Sharing    
"Some good insights. I can relate to the need to let go of my will and turn to Gods will. That is the secret to the program for me and one I need to continually do, especially in times of temptation. When I first came into the program about 2 years ago I did not feel like I had much control over my life. But as I began to work the steps and recognize that my life was unmanageable and that I needed help in dealing with my impulses then there pull on me began to weaken. Since then I have noticed that the first step in the LDS ARP tells me that I of myself am powerless over my addiction. I have learned that when I rely on the Lord and not just myself then I do have power to exercises agency to resist temptation. I feel like my addiction is becoming more manageable as I rely on the Lords power. It is not always easy to do that. If I was relying on my own will today I would of done something different than I am doing. I have learned that it feels good to rely on the Lord and though I may have to give up a few things what I receive in return is much more rewarding. I wish you the best. You sound like a young man, hope you continue to hang in there and you will find what you want over time. Love ya. Thanks for giving me the opportunity to share."
posted at 18:54:15 on June 30, 2009 by SandyMan

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