where my people at?
By noonies
12/4/2008 12:05:23 AM
I was sitting at my computer tonight thinking what should i do with my time. i decided to search the LDS 12 steps. i came upon this site and knew that this is what i need. i am feeling overwhelmed with my recovery. i quit and do "good" for a few days even weeks and then i get this crazy feeling of just crazy i guess. i fidget, pace, bite my nails and all around just freak out. my sobriety ends there. i am within walking distance to a few houses that i can party at. so i go for a walk. i keep telling myself that i am getting stronger because i can stay sober for longer periods at a time. i mean after all those are my people. i am the only member in my family and it is so hard to stay away from my siblings and cousins. i love them so much. i love my Heavenly Father too. i need to find new people. i have prayed for new friends and family. i live in a ward that is real clicky and i dont feel like i fit in because i have 6 kids and i am only 30 yrs old and all the other members in my ward are young and barely starting a family. i read my scriptures, pray, family prayer. i go to church every other Sunday and hold a church calling. i do not know what to do with myself. i havent talked to my bishop in a while and i know i should but what if i get dis fellowshipped from the church or something like that? i am scared of that happening. he knows my situation and has always given me great advise. i guess i just answered my own question. see my bishop. wow! writing is really helpful.


"Thanks for posting, I encourage you to visit your bishop, its always the best thing to do. Do not be discouraged if you feel like an outsider in your ward, their are always people willing to be friendly. Something I think that we often forget it that making good friends is not always the easiest thing. Good people have good standards and while they are always nice to others, they will rarely allow an outsider to become intimate with them unless they are sure that he/she has high standards as well. Trying staying sober and as you feel the spirit come back into your life, begin making conscious efforts to show that you have something worth offering to any "cliche" that you think would be to your best interest to be in. Because you do have something to offer, you are uniquely you, the one and only. God made you and took special care with you, if you have the spirit with you, and with prayers lifting you up, the search for finding better friends should become much easier.

posted at 22:23:19 on December 7, 2008 by calarie
"sorry i cant spell sometimes, i will proof read next time."
posted at 22:24:39 on December 7, 2008 by calarie
"You must realize people are all around us. We must sometimes seek, then you will find. Remember God has a plan for you. Have faith be strong."
posted at 16:07:02 on March 6, 2009 by Anonymous

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