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One Step Enough
By stargazer
10/21/2008 8:30:49 AM
The night is dark, and I am far from home;
Lead thou me on!
Keep thou my feet; I do not ask to see
The distant scene-one step enough for

Today I am grateful for Bill W. and the twelve-step program.

As a part of my recovery I read blogs by addicts (for me, it is similar to being at a meeting and hearing the group leader's personal experience with addiction); I also read from books on the 12-step program. Thousands of people testify that working the 12 steps has worked for them.

Last Sunday I blew my 32 day recovery; today I'm on day 2 again! But I don't feel bad, I feel like a huge success because I got back on the program on Monday. This time, it felt much more important to be honest and admit that Sunday was not a "clean" day. Honesty is not a strong feature in an addict, and I thank Heavenly Father for helping me be honest with myself. If I hadn't been honest I'd be thinking this is day 34, but there would be a taint to that, and no joy. I am very happy with my clean and honest "day 2"!

At first the 12-step thing seemed kind of weird; but the succesful abstainers say "Yes, it's stupid, but if you want what we have, do what we do." So--I'll read and write today, and ask God to help me make this a clean day, and anticipate tonight's prayer, when I'll thank God for helping me today. One clean day at a time is all we can ask for.

Comments:

Thanks, Oak!    
"I really appreciate what you've written, both about being honest, and about the circles.

Congratulations on day #5, truly clean. The success of a clean day leads to hope of another. This morning I thanked Heavenly Father again for yesterday, and have prayed that today will be clean, too."
posted at 07:28:21 on October 22, 2008 by stargazer
Honest is the Best Policy    
"It truly is. I too sometimes struggle with this and have to remind myself that Honesty is the Best Policy.

-hope4Change"
posted at 21:56:49 on October 23, 2008 by hope4change


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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006