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By Matrix
5/22/2008 7:46:05 PM
I feel like Job. Not quite to the same extreme but I feel like I can relate. I've been diagnosed with autoimmune hepatitis so my health is somewhat gone. I've recently had two of my friends tell me I am a bad friend and they want nothing to do with me (which is very untrue, just issue in their life they can't face) so all but one of my friends are gone. I also have a good friend who I have an huge crush on completely ignoring me for no reason so my "love" is gone. I also just found out I am on academic probation at school and I have medical bills that need to be paid. To top it off, I'm working through screwing up and overdosing a couple weeks ago. I'm very surprised that I am happy despite all these things. I cleared things up with my bishop and it's been 9 days since my relapse. I feel very strongly that I'll be okay and that I won't relapse again. I've gone over 6 months without a relapse before and I know I can get to the point of never doing it again. Maybe that was the last time ever. I'm going to try hard to make it that way. I'm so grateful to my one remaining loyal friend. She's been such a support and she accepts me for my illness, addiction, and whatever else in thrown in. I'm also thankful for my family. My parents are the most amazing people I've ever met. They truly want happiness for me. I really witnessed this when I told my mom about my OD. She wasn't mad or ashamed or anything. She told me it was normal to get depressed and act out about having a chronic illness. She told me that the only thing she felt was sorrow because she wishes that I didn't have to deal with this, especially at my age.
If my mom felt that way about me, just think of what Heavenly Father feels for us. He doesn't get mad or disappointed when we make mistakes. He's sad that we have to feel that way. He's trying his hardest to make us happy but unfortunately, sometimes we don't realize it. He's your dad, he loves you. He wants to take care of you. He wants to every opportunity to be open to you. All you have to do is realize it and take hold. He'll guide you through life as long as you're willing to let him.
I'm patiently waiting for things in my life to take a good turn. I've been tried very hard for very long but I know that when things finally look up, it will be so amazing because I've waited so long for it. Oh, I also found someone with my exact same illness and so I can finally get some questions answered that my doctors aren't helping with.

Good news, right?

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