By triumph
4/25/2014 8:33:37 PM
I am 17 and struggling with a masturbation addiction. It is fair to say that I am also addicted to pornography but there are very view instances of viewing pornography compared with the amount of times that I have masturbated so Im not sure if I am a porn addict. Lets just say I have an lust-addiction.

I have confessed to my bishop before and I was making great progress to recovery. I ASKED to join the addiction recovery program because I want to be free of these sexual habits so that I will be worthy to serve a mission (ill be 18 next year) and get married in the temple. Then I moved wards. My new chapel is far away from where the ARP takes place so I kind of made this excuse that, "Ill just continue to read the 12 steps and do my Duty to God, read scriptures, go to seminary, etc" and I have done a lot of those things, but since the move I have relapsed countless times, sadly like about an hour ago I had another one. Last Wednesday I recommitted to attending recovery meetings. I do plan on confessing to my new bishop, I have been for a while, things just seem to get in my way, or maybe Im letting them get in my way but I really wanna get this sorted out. It is Sunday tomorrow so Im going to try and see him then.

I have 2 questions that have been bugging me for a while tho

If I am already attending the ARP do I need to confess this time?
When I get up to step 5 I will definitely, if I haven't by then.

and I have done several sacred ordinances while being unworthy including temple baptisms. I remember hearing somewhere that when those ordinances are done unworthily, they don't count, so I feel like I am at fault for denying several deceased individuals the opportunity to be baptized meaning they will never be able to receive eternal life. - My question is, is that true and if it is, what fate would those individuals have, and mine?


My two cents    
"welcome and thanks for sharing about yourself. I woudl recommedn getting a sponsor, somone who has been there done that and gotten the t-shirt. They will be able to help you get where you wnant to go. I noticed that having a sponsor has helped me make tremendous strides in my life. Previously I tried ot do things myself and strugled without the feedback. I don't think we were meant to be alone in a lot of different ways.

Regarding the ordinances I don't know about the doctrine but I have to imagine that a loving heavinely father wouldn't invalidate those ordinaces taht you have done. I don't know the answer to your question but I have to imagine that it has more ot do with your progression twoard him than it does reagarding whether the people you wanted to serve are not going to be saved. The lord is merciful, more merciful than we can imagine, not that he tolerates sin that is not what I mean. What I mean is that he loves us, he truly loves us so much that he gave his son for us, for you if you were the only one to accept his sacrifice on your behalf. I hope that helps. Keep coming back you will make it with your savior's help!"
posted at 09:02:46 on April 26, 2014 by sjanderson
Never give up    
"Never give up Triumph! I have struggled also struggled with lust and masturbation for decades. Thank goodness I have rarely indulged in visual pornography as that seems to be so hard to get out of your head. I started masturbating when I was about fifteen years old.

I got married in my twenties. Being married to a good partner has helped me a lot. It seems I go a several years without masturbating and then have a relapse. But I get up and keep going because I want the LORD's grace and the Atonement in my life.

Do not ever use this sin as an excuse to break the law of chastity with another person. Repenting of masturbation is far better than having to repent of violating the law of chastity with another person. Keep trying even when you fail. It will likely take time to learn to control your sex drives. I failed over a thousand times. The LORD is merciful when you turn away from your sin and begin your journey with Him."
posted at 20:28:08 on April 28, 2014 by Anonymous

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