Can't seem to shake this...
By SeekingHelp
1/17/2014 11:56:21 AM
I've been here a few times, even been motivated to confess to my bishop after posting here a few times. But it seems I have thrown myself back into this pit and I just keep digging. After a few weeks of trying to climb out but actually digging myself deeper, I got the thought today to seek help from my bishop again. Except this time I need to tell him EVERYTHING and not hold anything back like I have in the past. In the past I've confessed about the looking at p0rn and what comes with it, but I have come to realize that my addiction has morphed into more than that. Now to build the courage needed to make that call.....please pray that I will have the strength and courage to do what I need to....


Hang in there with the Saviour you can do anything    
I wish I had some wise words to share with you. I have felt I think some of the same feelings you might be feeling now, not that long ago even. Knowing that there are other people out there who are struggling as well has helped me realize that there is a way to overcome the addiction. When I thought it was my problem, something wrong with me, I didn't see any way out, there was no way things could ever get better. as I've understood the hormones that are in play, the emotions that are in play and other mechanics of the addiction I think I am more empowered to make better choices. As I said, when I didn't understand the hormones involved, the feelings involved I thought I was broken and a bad person. coming to undertand that the emotions and hormones we have are okay, that we are each of infinite value known by our heavenly father makes it clearer to make better choices. Coming to understand the mechanics of addiction better has also empowered me to make better choices as well because people (mostly my wife and some past bishops) use to say just stop its wrong etc. None of us understood what was involved and why it was so difficult to change

The Adversary works really hard to isolate us, to get us to feel alone and unique in a bad way, meaning that we are uniquely outside of the Saviours grasp.

I would humbly submit that your addiction is probably something deeper, that there might be a deeper issue that your not aware off that has caused you to make the choices that you have. I say that because of the personal reflection and conversation i've had with others who have felt the same way, the addiction is wrong yes but there is something deeper inside of us usually that is hurting that needs to be fixed in order to overcome the addiction. I read Brother Christiansen's talk from Deseret Publishing called Healing the Broken Hearted. In the talk he says from his experience as a Stake President and Bishop and a counselor most folks don't act out because of evil or wickedness, most people instead are trying to fill a hole in their lives, or cover some pain or something from their past. As I've looked at my life I turned to my addiction for a couple of reasons that included: fear, anger at God regarding physical limiations on my body, pride - believing that I was too far outside the Saviour's grasp.

I would recommend as others have on this forum to check out and get involved with It is a great program with a lot of practical tools for someone searching to change their life.

I hope this has helped, mostly to let you know that you are not alone, that other people face these same feelings each and everyday and many have overcome with the help of the Saviour and practical tools that are out there to help you understand your challenges.

Keep the faith"
posted at 12:40:25 on January 17, 2014 by sjanderson
how long    
"How long has this been going on and what kind of addiction are we talking about here? Has it only happened a couple times or a lot?"
posted at 16:11:18 on January 17, 2014 by Anonymous
"If you'd like help I'd love to help you with what I've tried and maybe it'd work for you. If so gimme your email, and we can discuss techniques I tried!"
posted at 16:22:50 on January 17, 2014 by Anonymous
Troll alert    
"Hey Anon, why can't you share your techniques with the rest of us. I'm sure we'll all benefit."
posted at 23:00:33 on January 19, 2014 by Anonymous
Spiritual Roots    
"I hope that you confessed to your Bishop.
To have a better understanding of the spiritual roots to addiction read the post "Why you can't stop once you start" at Http:// There is empowering information there. God bless you!"
posted at 13:07:21 on April 4, 2014 by Anonymous

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