By seeker
7/18/2013 4:58:25 AM
I know that I receive a lot of help just by being on this site and reading what others have to say and the advice they give, but I have to be quite frank here. How can I turn to God to help me with my sins when I feel left behind? I feel like when I needed him most he wasn't there. How do I turn to him when I feel like that? It's not that I want to feel like that and it's not like I want people to be angry at me for saying this. Has anyone been in this position?

I don't feel like I can turn to him now when I tried so hard and prayed and cried for his help so many times. I think maybe I'm just not giving him enough credit, since I am still alive and breathing today. But I still don't understand. I don't understand anything when people say to turn to God or to the church when I feel so shunned and unworthy. How am I supposed to go to church or pray when I don't really believe that God cares about me? I mean I hear people say he does and all that, but that doesn't change the way I feel most times. I mean all those nights I needed him and cried for him why didn't he help me? Those times I started going to church again, why did things just get worse? have so many why's and not enough answers. I honestly think that maybe I'm just cut out to be this way, maybe I'm not meant to change.

I know its not good to feel like this, but I thought I would put this out there since I believe others might feel like this too at some point. But does anyone have any answers? Any advice on this? I can't continue on until I get this sorted out. It's only been two days and I am starting to think like this...almost anything will help at this point.


he hears you    
"Have you told God all of that in your prayers, exactly as you said it here?

He listens. Tell him those thoughts. Listen for his answer."
posted at 09:03:50 on July 18, 2013 by beclean
Thank you for your honesty    
"for decades I was convinced that God hated me. I didn't even think He was honest. Then I had my "near death" experience in which I spoke to an angel and asked questions of him. It wouldn't be appropriate to go into details on this site, but let me say that this experience was the beginning of many more like it (and much greater) that have led me back into the Church.

I didn't realize that God was in the details of my life -- He knows every thought, feeling, challenge and passion that I have. He is aware of each one as they occur. And I am nobody special, I'm just like everyone else. Which means that he knows every thought, challenge, temptation, heartbreak, void, disappointment, failure, success, joy and so forth, that you have as they occur, and he has great sympathy and empathy for you for each of those. But for some reason that none of us understands, He cannot interfere with or change these things, with rare exceptions. But I think it has to do with building faith.

We are all tried in different ways, and many of us are humbled in different ways. Think of the story of the butterfly that was struggling to get out of its cocoon. A young boy, thinking he would help the creature, took out a knife and carefully sliced open the cocoon to free the butterfly. But in doing so, he condemned it to a slow death. It was later explained to him by an older, wise man that the butterfly has to struggle for a long time to free itself from the cocoon, because that's what builds its muscles to move its wings. Otherwise, it wouldn't be able to fly. So the butterfly the boy thought he had helped had actually died because of his well-intended actions.

The Lord won't make that same mistake with us. He allows us to struggle. That is because He wants us to become like Him. With some of us, it's addiction, and believe me, some of us have been given this challenge to humble us and/or to make us grow. We've been given this challenge. And the Heavens seem stone deaf as we cry out for help, and instead of an answer, there is only silence. This must have something to do with building our faith and the self-existent laws that prevent Our Heavenly Father from interfering.

Speaking of that, there is a parable in the New Testament where the Savior talks about someone who continually petitioned someone in authority until he finally got what he wanted. He then suggested that we be like that in our prayers to our Heavenly Father, that we constantly petition Heavenly Father when we really want something. I also have been taught that when we pray long enough, sincerely enough, for something that's right, and with sufficient faith, the Heaven's must obey that petition or they would be in sin and cease to exist.

I don't think that you're not meant to change, it just might be that now is not the time that you're ready to change. Or maybe it is the right time to change and the Adversary is throwing extra resources into the fray. Whatever, the remedy is the same: keep on struggling the best you can. Maybe you just have extra large wings that you have to build the muscles for."
posted at 13:33:22 on July 18, 2013 by dog

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"The Savior teaches that we will have tribulation in the world, but we should "be of good cheer" because He has "overcome the world". His Atonement reaches and is powerful enough not only to pay the price for sin but also to heal every mortal affliction… He knows of our anguish, and He is there for us. Like the good Samaritan in His parable, when He finds us wounded at the wayside, He binds up our wounds and cares for us. Brothers and sisters, the healing power of His Atonement is for you, for us, for all. "

— Dallin H. Oaks

General Conference October 2006