By SeekingHelp
6/2/2013 12:03:29 PM
I recently posted here that I had slipped up. Well, it hasn't gotten any better. I have had many experiences before and after my slip up that I know are the Lord telling me what I need to do. The Lord has shown me how truly blessed I am and how much He still loves me, which is a miracle to me.

I know that I need to go to my bishop, but I am SO freakin scared! As I have stated before I go to a church school and have indulge in this sin on campus. I am 7 weeks from graduating and I am scared beyond anything that going to my bishop will compromise my ability to graduate. I know that the Lord is telling me that I can't wait any longer, but I am SO scared! I guess I am just looking for reassurance and guidance. I don't know I am just so confused and scared right now....

I have seriously never been so scared in my entire life...


The Bishop is your friend    
"Your Bishop will probably be devastated for you. What a load you are carrying by yourself! Go see him; he loves you. He will probably cry with you. He will help you. His goal is to help you apply the atonement and overcome your temptation and guilt.

Many students on church campuses are involved in porn and masturbation. Your bishop will not immediately conclude that you must be expelled, especially if you are willing to attend meetings.

Don't hide or cover your sin. That is the most natural thing, but it keeps you in the dark, where you must be left alone to fight your own battles. Bring the problem to light, and let the Lord carry some of your heavy load.

Don't be afraid of the Bishop! That's Satan telling you to stay away.

And know that no matter what happens with regard to your education at a church school, everything will work out, if you put God first. But if you don't put him first, nothing will work out. What good is it for you to get a degree, but lose your soul? If you had the choice between leaving school with a degree, but still completely engulfed in sin and guilt, and leaving school with no degree (yet), but knowing you are on the road to real freedom, which do you think would benefit you the most?

I think there's a strong chance you'll leave school with a degree AND spiritual progress, if you go see your bishop.

Have faith. God loves you. So do his servants."
posted at 21:30:04 on June 2, 2013 by beclean
You can do it!    
"Trust me, you are not the only one in your church school that has gone to your bishop with this issue - if your school didn't let people who have had this problem graduate then there would be significantly fewer guys in caps and gowns. Do what's right. Every time I've gone to a bishop and have been repentant they have been very understanding and merciful. The absolute WORST thing you can do with addiction is avoid consequence. Because it teaches your brain that you can get away with things. Part of recovery is paying the price for your actions. Good luck - you'll be fine."
posted at 21:43:33 on June 2, 2013 by recovery.gdo
I went to a church school . . .    
". . . and I was never kicked out, or even punished for that matter. I kind of wish I had been.

But you're doing the right thing. And bishops at church schools are very, very familiar with this problem. He will understand and be supportive, not unfairly punitive. Good luck!"
posted at 03:07:06 on June 4, 2013 by johnroberts

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004