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A prayer.
By skyteamst90
4/13/2007 9:31:46 PM

I have to write something out here to let the lord know i am sorry...

Father in heaven,
I type out a prayer, so as others can see something I have done and to publicly make it known. I came across a website that had information that didn't bare good fruit and was not praise worthy or uplifting about the church. I was curious and foolish. I shouldn't have been looking up things that weren't in harmony with church teachings. I am angry, but not at you, at myself. I don't like who I am, and hate myself so much. I really feel like a loser and a hopeless case. I don't know how to ask for forgivness, because many times, I think there is none. Maybe this is a lie from the father of lies himself. If I am speical, please help me see that, so as I can have the courage to ask for forgiveness and figure out how to unlock this door and my heart, as I am drowning here. I do ask, really embarressly, for forgiveness, I don't totally know how it works, what to say really, I think my words are all wrong, and well my words don't really mean anything, since I lied to you about my oath with my marriage. So, I don't know what else to say. I feel so locked in a prison here, and trapped. and many times it feels like, well i did it to myself, why would he help you...i hope your real. i hope things will be better for me. i hope i can figure this out before its too late. cause i know your coming and i am so messed up.
i say this in christ name, amen.

Comments:

Haning on....    
"I really am not sure what i am going to do...i am so depressed and just not feeling good. I am going to meet with a friend from church as i feel like i am going to hurt myself...i am so not happy. i just want the pain to end. idid this to myself, and I just feel so alone. just everything is wrong. thanks to you guys who prayed for me and tried to help. thats so nice of you. i hope i can make it...i may end up in a hospital due to this, but if i make it, i will come back and write something. i dont think a prayer will help, it never does. i just hate my life so much, i dont want to be here anymore."
posted at 17:08:53 on April 20, 2007 by skyteamst90
Some Proactive Action Needed    
"I don't mean to sound judgemental, but with such a defeatist and negative attitude, it is no wonder that the Savior can't get through. You need to quick whining and start making changes in your life. Nothing else is going to help you."
posted at 22:07:20 on April 20, 2007 by Anonymous
Thanks for that...    
"posted by anonymous? hmmm.
Well anyways, I have made some progress...small, but its there."
posted at 06:42:50 on April 24, 2007 by skyteamst90
Start Serving Others    
"When we let ourselves get into the pit of dispair, the only way out is to start serving others. Go serve dinner to the homeless, go volunteer at any organization that for an hour each day your are serving someone else. When you feel like there is no return the Savior will lift you up, but you need to fight Satan with all your power, this is the time that he will hit you while your down. He is telling you, you are worthless and no good, show him you are good by serving others your time and energy."
posted at 09:08:51 on April 25, 2007 by wife
Thnks.    
"I am going to take a break from here, and get some faith. I am not sure how to get it. That is something 'wife' said in another post.
I am not sure i want to pray and ask for it, as when i have done that, bad things have happned, and I don't want to whine anymore. I have done plenty of that...i need to start and get busy.

i will check in another time. thanks to all thus far for your posts and help. its been really kind."
posted at 16:06:10 on April 25, 2007 by skyteamst90
I think i know who wrote that anny post    
"
I think i know who wrote that....hmmm, I'll have to ask him when i see him...The church is a small world."
posted at 19:51:07 on May 18, 2007 by skyteamst90


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