By They_Speak
3/18/2013 6:03:11 PM
One of the best part about not being frazzled with lust is it makes room for love. There is so much more to love than just service and words. Or rather there is so much of love behind service and words. And it's discernible. We can feel it. I don't mean to sound like a new age hippie, which I am (thanks mom), but the energy of love is so rad to feel!

Today at meeting there was a gal with bi polar. I could literally...I know it sounds weird but I could feel her energy. I don't know how else to say it. She looked somber but nothing to obvious. I could feel her despair as she sat there even before she spoke. When she spoke she didn't have much to say. But what was wonderful - for me probably a lot more than her - was after the meeting I felt to give her a big hug. Like a real hug. Like the kind you mean. Like the kind meant as an expression of how you feel with the hope that they are able to feel it. I could tell she felt it because as she realized it was a real hug not just a formality or pat on the back hug she embraced me back. Maybe she didn't need it but it seemed like it. Maybe I needed it. But it felt good. We didn't say much. In fact we talked about my hat because she asked about it. She expressed appreciation and asked if I was familiar with mental illness and I told her yes and that I knew she trudges a hard road. It made me want to cry. I think there was unspoken understanding. Connection. I don't think anything more really needed to be said. The purpose was served. The Spirit of God was felt. Healing came. And that's all that mattered.

When I am in lust these are the things I miss. I can not feel. I'm dead. I hate it so badly.


"someone i know who knows you, said your more a lumber jack...idk [chuckle]...

Its nice to connect with other earthlings + when we're not engauged in lustful behaviour our minds come alive. Its really cool you reached out.
Bipolar is hard condition to deal with...mental issues in general do. I have depression + sucks...I have overcome alot though..."
posted at 18:35:50 on March 18, 2013 by skyteamst90
"Sometimes there are limits to our broken language. I love the word love. But sometimes the word 'compassion' seems to imply something...well, something else. Something about empathy and trying to help someone else that saying the word 'love' doesn't automatically define (at least for me). When I think about it, or course the word 'love' covers ALL of that, but what you described here, (which is a beautiful experience btw) really made me think of the word: Compassion.

BTW did you know that of the nine principles listed in The Family: A Proclamation to the World that 'love' and 'compassion' are listed separately? I've been pondering why and your post made me think about it again.

P.S. Hippies are awesome"
posted at 22:16:20 on March 18, 2013 by maddy
You're awesome, man!    
"I want what you have."
posted at 22:47:00 on March 18, 2013 by Anonymous
"Yes. You nailed it. That exactly describes it. You're good. Geez, I was there and couldn't put my finger on the feeling quite so precisely. Maybe cause it's so foreign to me lol. As I read your post it made me think of when Jesus was filled with compassionand I thought "yes!, that's what I felt". Boom. Lot to think about.

Skyteam whoever it is you know is wrong. I look just like a 1867 :)

Anonymous it's was totally God. And yeah, it was pretty damn sweet! And yeah, we all want it (God). Don't know how I forget sometimes..."
posted at 16:22:09 on March 19, 2013 by they_speak
"Alright my friend I will inform them...[chuckle]…

press forward"
posted at 16:29:28 on March 19, 2013 by skyteamst90
Kick it...    
"You're lucky, your dad sounds like a good man!
I know what you mean, though.
Have you ever had someone ask you, "How are you doing?" and you answer them, "Good, how are you?" and they don't even answer the question because they couldn't be bothered to listen to your reply? Ha!"
posted at 21:09:47 on March 20, 2013 by Anonymous
"you know your post right now really really gave me a good feeling! Love it. :) That very sweet of you. I love that you prob made that girl feel very good about her self and know she has some true friends and can come back to that mtg. I ALSO have extreme bipolar.:( it really really sucks! But since I've accepted I have it finally -I have learned to know now finally when my mind is acting impulsively crazy...I know it's my bipolar and it will pass. Since I've accepted this bipolar, I really havn't acted out extreme. It a very hard mental disorder to overcome addictions.:( But hoping with the Power of God, I can get through this and do His will.....Meetings are so good for me to feel the love from so many different people. I love hearing other stories and knowing I'm not the only one with problems. VEry theraputic."
posted at 11:52:44 on March 21, 2013 by marie sober

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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006