Update a year later
1/14/2013 5:54:11 PM
I am not on hear near as much as I should be. About a year ago I started posting and this site was a strength to me when I was first starting my recovery process.
It was the advice I got on this site that convinced me I should tell my wife.

I was terrified to tell her, but I did. Since that day in March last year I have endured more pain than I thought I could handle. I had the worst days and months that I have ever experienced in my life.

But I also experienced love. I experienced forgiveness. I have experienced some of the most enriching, spiritual, heartfelt, emotionally loaded, wonderfully bonding moments that I have ever felt as well.

I have learned and continue to learn about my addiction. It is a fight. But I feel like with honesty and the team of people on my side it is manageable.
I have over 1 year of sobriety from porn and masturbation and am continually trying to make sure I move my boundaries a little further away from the cliff that I fell off of so many, many, many times.

My wife is an angel. We are not perfect, but we are perfect for each other, and I am so grateful she still believes that after the hell I put her through.

God cares, he can save you. I didn't believe that for a long time. But I do now.


"Great to hear another success story, particularly about your wife forgiving you. My wife is having a really difficult time overcoming the feelings of hurt and inadequacy and also having a really hard time forgiving me or having faith in me, despite my almost year of sobriety. A year sounds like so long, and in some ways it is, but others it is just the beginning. I hope we can both keep on the road, not justify any steps toward that cliff, and recognize it the moment we even begin to walk toward it."
posted at 15:14:58 on January 15, 2013 by recovery.gdo
"Glad to hear you have one year of not giving in to sexual sin. It has been a little over six months for me since I last masturbated. I hope to go back to the temple soon."
posted at 00:22:20 on January 31, 2013 by Anonymous
So happy for you.    
"Well done. I am so excited for you. I am only one clean but it was a great day. Starting the steps tonight and ready to move forward. I will be on here alot i think so any help would be great. But i am so happy to hear that it is possible. Thank you"
posted at 12:48:51 on January 31, 2013 by Joshbc
One year!!    
"Dude that's great! Awesome work. Keep it up!"
posted at 01:37:20 on February 1, 2013 by Fatherofone

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"Just as the landfill requires dedicated work and attention, laboriously applying layer after layer of fill to reclaim the low-lying ground, our lives also require the same vigilance, continually applying layer after layer of the healing gift of repentance.…Our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ, feel sorrow when we choose to remain in sin, when the gift of repentance made possible through the Atonement can clean, reclaim, and sanctify our lives. When we gratefully accept and use this precious gift, we can enjoy the beauty and usefulness of our lives... "

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