Day 1 and a strange scenario
By myid
9/3/2012 7:03:32 PM
I'd Like to first mark yesterday (Sunday) as day 1 of sobriety. able to attend ARP meetings last 2 sundays and my wife and I setting up to meet with the bishop sometime this week (temple recommend renewal).

I need to put out a strange scenario I'm facing right now. I need your opinion: Last night as I was returning home from the ARP meeting I saw a water mocassin snake crossing the road I was traveling on. I thought of the symbolism of this snake in scripture and decided to run it over as an outward act of overcoming the world. well after a few times going round and round, watching other cars running it over and a large stone this vipor was dead. afterwards I felt shame but resolved to give it a respectable burial in the nearby river in the morning. So, this morning My daughter and I found the place for the vipor's internment; the slow flowing river in the nearby woods. While in the woods I saw the addict's dream and hurried my daughter along so she wouldnt see it. It was that Stash Ive often frantically searched for while in the addicts "bubble". The torn out magazine images were easily discernable. I also caught site of a metal drum with holes rusted through where the magazines were stashed. I rushed us out of those woods after the snake's short funeral and started to make distance from the place in the car.

My dilemna is: do I go back to destroy all this public pornography and risk getting stuck acting out. Or do I move on, getting support from everyone and try to never return??

My instinct tells me to go back and correctly dispose the material possibly bringing someone from the Group. This could help others from continuing the addiction or getting hooked.

What would you do???

Thanks for letting me share.


Good job seeking advice    
"My thought is that you are not "the morality police." You should not return anywhere you know there is trouble. Do not take the destruction of those things upon yourself.

But, you could definitely call other "authorities" to do the job. You could even call police. Tell them you were in the woods with your daughter and she and you stumbled upon this garbage. Tell them you rushed your daughter away from the sight, but you think someone should go back there and clean it up.

Then some cop can take it home :-(."
posted at 21:15:35 on September 3, 2012 by BeClean
Get someone else to go    
"I'd definitely want to get rid of it... but to protect myself I'd get someone else to go. Actually - I'd tell my bishop to go get rid of it... but I have that kind of relationship with him, and he'd do it too. But I wouldn't leave it there. Satan would tell you that it's your obligation and your obligation alone and you're the only one who can do it. This of course is to get you isolated and in trouble. But I think it's important to protect the innocent passerby's too. So ya - someone else my friend! Or go with a friend and just throw a match in that drum!

posted at 23:00:36 on September 3, 2012 by siouxsie
"I agree with Siouxsie. If you do decide to go back to dispose of the garbage magazines take someone else with you. A best approach may be digging a hole about two feet deep and burying the magazines in there."
posted at 01:23:40 on September 4, 2012 by Anonymous
Probably not a good idea to go..    
"It's like being an alcoholic and going into a bar. "I, myself, am powerless over my addiction...""
posted at 07:24:35 on September 4, 2012 by g1rlie
Get rid of it!    
"Take a sponsor with you. Do not let an innocent young child be exposed. Take responsibility. Pray before you go."
posted at 01:14:41 on September 5, 2012 by Anonymous
It is a trap.    
"For once in however many years, I second what Beclean said: "You are not the morality police."
You are not tempted to go back for any GOOD reason. Normal, non-addicted people have the luxury of choosing to get rid of it. You don't."
posted at 08:37:24 on September 5, 2012 by Anonymous
I am still sick.    
"YOU ALL HAVE GOOD POINTS! Your thoughts have all strengthened me . . Thanks. The stuff needs to be cleared out of there by someone who is not Sick; and I'm not healthy enough to do it. It definitely needs to be done soon. My thoughts on the place are becoming frequent...Tonight I am meeting with the Bishop and I will ask for his support for this addiction."
posted at 05:21:44 on September 6, 2012 by myid
Next time    
"let the snake live."
posted at 18:23:14 on September 10, 2012 by dog

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