Days turn to weeks turn to Months turn to years
6/28/2012 7:14:14 AM
I've relapsed several times throughout my recovery process. I try hard not to beat myself up about it. Today is 104 days no P%RN & 74 days no M. I am very pleased with myself. Cautiously Optimistic.
I was talking to a friend that has been doing really well for over 2 years. I commented "Doesn't it feel good to be doing good?" It does to me.
No more hiding. No more secrets. It's so much easier without secrets.
I have to plan my days, I have to keep a balance. I pray ALOT, pretty much any time that I'm alone & anytime that I need extra help, so basically nearly all the time. I can't do it alone, I can't. None of us can.
Jesus Christ is here for us, all of us, including you!
If I can make it 104 days for the 20-something time, then you can too. Whatever it takes to get there, then it's worth it.


"You are doing great! Thanks for sharing! Your title is very good. Too many think that this problem can just STOP, and they will immediately feel free from temptation. It doesn't work that way. It takes daily devotion to change--change the way your mind works and the way the chemicals in your body affect you.

I know and promise that complete CHANGE and FREEDOM is possible, but it takes daily diligence and obedience. It takes getting back up every time you fall, and recommitting to the Lord. You don't have to commit to "never do it again." You just commit to keep going, keep working the steps, keep doing what YOU can do. HE can heal you, YOU can serve him.

As you keep putting one foot in front of the other one each day, and getting back on your feet every time you fall, you soon find (when you look behind you) that you have moved many miles down the road of recovery, even though it felt that you hardly moved forward each day.

As I look back over 20 years of "recovery" (from the day I first fell into the trap) I see that I have made HUGE progress over the past 6 years. I have said before, I now feel FREE to choose whether I will ever fall again. Nude pictures flash in my face occasionally (an amazing 4 times in the past 3 days from 4 completely different sources and without me looking for those images even once), but it doesn't phase me any more. I brush it off and move on with life, realizing that these things happen, and I don't need to freak out about it. God has restored to me the freedom to choose!

But that freedom was not restored in a day. I didn't suddenly overcome by fasting for 3 days and praying all night long. It happened over the course of 15 years of consistent scripture study and prayer...taking it one day at a time. Even now, if I were to stop studying the scriptures and leave behind the relationship I have built with the Savior, I am certain I would fall into the same trap again.

Days turn to weeks turn to months turn to years. True."
posted at 11:57:59 on June 28, 2012 by beclean
thank you    
"It is great to read your comments, it gave me strength and courage to continue"
posted at 09:19:34 on June 29, 2012 by mike81

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"One of the great myths in life is when men think they are invincible. Too many think that they are men of steel, strong enough to withstand any temptation."

— James E. Faust

General Conference, April 2002