Screwed up again with "The Black Vortex"
By asdfjkl1234
6/3/2012 12:17:36 PM
I just fell again to temptation yesterday. Can anybody relate to "The Black Vortex". By that I mean the black hole that is pornography and MB, and that is all that I can focus on. It gets SO overwhelming that I can't think about anything else. I seriously forget that the sun is out and it's a beautiful day. Well, this is what happened to me yesterday. I got so preoccupied with sex and porn and mb that I felt like I HAD to act out. Well, I did, and after it was all done, the black fog lifted and I felt alive and normal again. I noticed that the sun was beautiful and it was a great Saturday. I could concentrate again on more important things in life, like my kids and my house to clean, etc...

When "The Black Vortex" comes and sucks you in so much that you can't think about anything else, how do you get out? Just wondering. I've tried praying at that moment, but it doesn't seem to be enough. I have told myself that I would go running or some type of exercise when this occurs, but when it happens, it's too late and my motivation for running dies very quickly.

Still trying though, Thanks all. Love your comments, don't like the bickering back and forth, but love the uplifting comments!


feel for you    
"I know what you are going though , I too know that black hole and have been there a lot lately. I'm here for you and the lord is as well hang in there that's all we can do and get on our knees alot ."
posted at 12:28:10 on June 3, 2012 by newsoul
"Get up, get out go talk to somebody, leave the house, as Joseph of Egypt did, run from temptation. I call one of my sponsors or talk to one of my sisters who knows. You have to be able to talk about it. That and I come on here and either blog or read others blogs."
posted at 16:11:02 on June 3, 2012 by John07
Bottom Line    
"There's a lot of things you could do. You already mentioned exercise, which is great, because it releases endorphins in your brain which in a way replace your desire to act out. John already suggested simply fleeing, another great thing to do. But for me, the bottom line was just building a resistance to the "black hole." When temptation would strike, I would oh so conveniently forget that I'm supposed to run, or talk to someone, before I act out. Building this resistance could take merely months, or years. You may never build your resistance to where you would like it to be. But faith in Jesus Christ and his power to heal
You if you but put forth the effort is key in building this resistance. BE SURE to PRAY and STUDY YOUR SCRIPTURES. For me, that isn't a recommendation, it's a requirement. I found temptation isn't as strong when I follow through with earnest prayer and study, and that I fall when I don't. Good luck, we, and more importantly Jesus Christ are here to support and love you."
posted at 01:50:03 on June 7, 2012 by Anonymous
"Man I've been there and still am there a lot. The on thing I know for sure is the more offset you resist the easier it is to keep resisting. The more often you give in the easier it is to give in. ESPECIALLY with pornography. Porn addicts develop a emotiona attachment/romantic relationship with our porn. You feel better when you do it 1. Because it releases endorphins and 2. Because you has a satisfying encounter with your lover. These are completely physical compensations, incapable of sustaining and eventually the spiritual and emotional toll has to be paid. Finding constructive ways to feed your bodies desire for pleasure can be difficult but exercise is probably the easiest. Praying while you run, or contemplating your scripture reading from today or yesterday can kill two birds with one stone. This would satisfy your bodies need for happy chemicals and uplift you spiritually. When you lack motivation to run, remember at those times the motivation needs to come from not wanting to give in to temptation... Not to exercise to be fit. It's way to easy to say I'll run tomorrow when your motivation is just being fit or losing weight. But surviving temptation and/or breaking free of the chains of addiction can be a good motivator. I know sometimes it's easier to tell yourself that I'd rather just give in... Believe me I know! But it's only easier short term and for a moment. The rest of our lives addicts stuck in their addiction struggle with the aftermath of relapse. Only by being clean and free of the bondage can we be truely free to live our life on our terms, not by the terms dictated to us by our false lover."
posted at 08:08:12 on June 7, 2012 by Tjditch

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