4/16/2012 1:34:25 AM
Sorry that this is so long. I had to include all of this so that you could understand me without me getting into a lot of private details.
About 10 days ago, I had a meeting with my Bishop. He suggested that I read a section of scriptures in 1Corinthians Chtr 7. I think it's the 1st 5 or 6 verses. You will see what the topic is if you read it, then you will understand what I'm talking about.
Well, he had referred me to this scripture a few times before in the past, so when he told me about again, I knew that I had my answer. I didn't like my answer, but I knew I had it. I decided that I was going to try and find latter-day discussions that supported my desire to not abide by this scripture.
I have a book called, 'Between Husband and Wife", it talks about intimacy in marriage. It talks about everything from birth control to things that are 'unnatural & unholy". There are tons of quotes from General Authorities on the subject of intimacy in marriage in the book.
Well, in my attempt to find something that supported my viewpoint, I didn't. Everything I read supported the scriptures that my Bishop suggested. I wasn't devastated though. Through my reading, the spirit confirmed to me that some of my behaviors had been very selfish & would continue to drive my spouse & I apart if I continued in them.
I also realized that several things that I perceived as "the truth" about me & my situation are NOT the truth. The spirit confirmed to me what the REAL TRUTHS are & that I needed to start my thinking process over with the REAL TRUTHS in place.
I'm being vague because I do not wish to divulge all of this sacred experience.
But think about this. Think about the things in your life that you consider THE TRUTH. Here are some examples: You are male or femaile, those truths really don't change. But what if your perception of the truth was that you were overweight, when you really weren't. What if your perception of the truth was that it was okay to steal as long as it was to feed your family. Again, it sounds a bit ridiculous to think that, but some of the things that I perceived as THE TRUTH were similar to that.
So in all of this reading & pondering I realized that some of the TRUTHS that I lived by were NOT the truth & the spirit confirmed to me what the REAL TRUTHS were. I didn't want to lose all that I felt was coming to me, so I typed up in my journal what the spirit told me.
I listed all the TRUTHS of what I am & what I am not.
I shared with my Bishop today my realization. He was the one that pointed out to me that this was quite a break through for me & suggested that I read my list of TRUTHS every day.
Here are just a few things in my list of truths, just to give you an idea in case you wan to make your own list of truths.
#!I am a child of God
#2 I have endured a lot of trials in my life, but those trials DO NOT define who I am.
#3. My addictive behaviors do not make me LESS THAN in value or diminish the fact that I am a Child of God.
#4. I am not permanently attached to my addictive behaviors.
That gives you an idea of what I mean. So now I have a list of TRUTHS that I read & will read every day & anytime that I am tempted to give into my addictive behaviors.
I'm not trying to boast or say that I have this beat. I'm just happy that I'm making progress. A lot of the time I don't give myself credit for the progress that I've made. It's progress in itself just to point out that I'm making progress.
I'm so thankful for my loving Bishop that follows the spirit & points in the way The Lord wants me to go. I'm thankful that I was humble enough to pay attention & actually be open enough to listen & make the changes.
I am not a rare case of personal progress. We all make progress every day that we do not indulge in our addictions. You can have a break through too.


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"Develop discipline of self so that, more and more, you do not have to decide and redecide what you will do when you are confronted with the same temptation time and time again. You need only to decide some things once. How great a blessing it is to be free of agonizing over and over again regarding a temptation. "

— Spencer W. Kimball