By anon16
4/12/2012 10:06:05 AM
I just feel very confused right now. I'm reading Believing Christ, like some members suggested. I have read it before, but am trying again. The thing that frustrates and confuses me, is that his basic premise is that it is impossible to do good all the time, that if we make one mistake then we're out and the atonement saves us from that.

In seminary today, we discussed how the basic premise of life was to serve God. That really rubs me the wrong way.

I don't agree that he loves us in the way most people talk about it. Its more of a sibling love and frankly he did it for the father, not us.

My family never discusses that part-his love. More about obeying the commandments. I'm just very frustrated, confused and upset and I don't know what I can do to change. I don't have a desire to act out right now but I am very discouraged which never helps.


Questions = Awesome!    
"First off, I think that it's important to realize that in our search for a testimony, we sometimes come across things that we don't agree with, and that is perfectly normal. In fact, I would say one of the biggest challenges of our life on Earth is to somehow match what the world says with what the Lord says.

As for the concerns with the Saviour's love, I don't think we will ever understand His love in this life. As both a father and a the oldest brother in a family of many siblings, I have found that the love I feel for my child is more than I ever thought possible. The way I understand it, the Saviour said "thy will be done." He was obedient to his Father. However, in the Garden in Gethsemane, he suffered for each of us individually. He knows EXACTLY what each of us is going through, and that puts him in a place to be able to reach out a touch each of us on a very personal basis that nobody else can. Yes, he did it because the Father asked him to, but he also knew that what his father was asking him to do would help his brothers and sisters that he loves dearly.

As for the purpose of life being to serve God, I think that is absolutely true, but not in the way you may be thinking. "In as much as he have done it unto one of the least of these, my brethren, he have done it unto me." Any time we do what's right, make the world a better place, fulfill our potential, or serve others we are serving God.

I have recently begun to think one of the main purposes of this life is to overcome the natural man and learn how to act like the Saviour. So much of the gospel is based around repentance and becoming better. Then again, while we do this we end up serving God. :) As weird as it might sound, I imagine Heavenly Father giving us our bodies like somebody who gives somebody who has never driven before the keys to a car and says "You have to pass the drivers test. GO!" They set up those big cardboard boxes, and you have to drive. Regardless how many times you smash through the boxes, trample the cardboard cutout people, or squeal the tires, they set them up again and you can try again. The savior is the one who is there to help us set up the boxes again. Without his help, we only get one try, and none of us have done this before. He is there to give us as many tries as we need. Some of us can't resist the urge to barrel straight into a wall full of cardboard boxes, but he is still there when we're ready try again. He loves us, and is there with a smile and a hug.

Anyways, hope that helps. Don't be too hard on yourself for asking questions. That is how your testimony grows, and make sure you always take your questions to Heavenly Father as well. He will be able to open your mind and help you understand."
posted at 11:58:15 on April 12, 2012 by Fatherofone

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"We cannot keep one foot in the Church and one foot in the world. One reason is the world and the Church are rapidly diverging. We will lose our balance.We know that "no man can serve two masters." Some, I fear, are attempting to do what President Marion G. Romney described as trying to "serve the Lord without offending the devil." "

— Larry W. Gibbons

General Conference October 2006