lots has happened....
By taintedlove
3/30/2012 12:17:26 AM
I've built my testimony and bore it this past Sunday.

I'm almost done reading Believing Christ and it has built my testimony. I don't have to be perfect but I do have to try and communicate with heavenly father. Also believe Christ. Not just in him but believe what he said. He is a burden carrier.

I've failed a few times but I not longer feel the burden. I'm a work in progress and I'm working on it.

I refuse to speak to my mom because she spread lies about me saying I was gangbanged rather than raped. I love her, but betraying your daughter is sickening. Especially with that rumor. Ive lost my animosity towards her but I am not allowing for betrayal no more. I am becoming more at peace.

My divorce is about to start. Ill be able to start anew. No more abuse. No more suffering at the words of him. No more ridicule for trying to do the right thing.

I feel the spirit. I know how to hear it now. It calls me by name in the kindest voice.

I don't hate me anymore. I'm still a work in progress.... but I am progressing.

I give all I have. 25% is all I have. But He has taken up my 75%.

Guys when you feel burdened, weary, bleak, and like you can't take anymore...... sing. You can read Scripture but the quickest relisingor me is to sing.
My Bishop suggested it and it works.

I may be getting a new calling soon and am praying for a new job. Please pray for me. Also general conference is this weekend. Pray for our leaders and that people that need the message will hear it. We as addicts shall get a powerful message. I can feel it.



"What an amazing, wonderful post!!

I am so happy for you. Peace and perfection are such different things and we don't need to be perfect to have peace do we? It sounds like you have found peace in the storm. I am so very happy for you that it makes me happy for me too!

posted at 10:34:41 on March 30, 2012 by maddy
Your rebirth    

Your rebirth is apparent. You don’t even sound like you used to. If you are like me the labor process of your rebirth may take a while, but it is nice to see it happening. It is exciting just to see the change that has taken place so far.

Your brother,
posted at 17:55:08 on April 2, 2012 by justjohn
change is possible    
"Its not like I don't sin. I do. But I am coming to terms that sin doesn't make me a terrible, wicked, unforgivable person. Forgiveness is hard. And at times it is even more difficult to accept. But as a "Mormon" we take upon the name of Jesus. We not only believe in him but we believe him. His words. What he stands for. It took me to read part of this short book to realize it. I'm still not finished with it but I got far enough to get the meaning I needed.

Now guys, I'm not saying go out and sin all you want and then non-chalantly repent and think you're forgiven. I'm saying if you do fail, like myself even when I am trying hard, repent with a purpose. Trust and believe your sins are forgiven and pray for courage and strength. When you are hopeless, lay it all out to God. Tell him you are sad, angry, or are on the verge of giving up.

I've always said and thought this but never fully believed it.... but here goes.... I don't think God cares how much we fall. I think what matters most is our trying and our continuous communication with him. We are human. Its inevitable that we'll fail. But aren't we lucky that Jesus died and rose again. He was our perfect brother who sacrificed himself for imperfect us and rose in order to defend us.

This is the meaning of Easter..... We are forgivable. We are loved. :-)"
posted at 23:10:40 on April 5, 2012 by taintedlove
power to change    
"This is an article I have been studying on change. It poignantly puts how the Gospel can change our lives. “The gospel changed my heart, my appearance, my attitude, and my feelings. And I learned to pray. Whenever I have a problem, I go to Heavenly Father and say, ‘Help me.’ And he sees me through it. … Now when I walk, I walk with my head high because I know Heavenly Father’s beside me every step of the way."

I agree with God doesn't care how much we fall or fail, but what we do to get up each time. How long does it take for one to bounce back from a setback? Do we reach for Him in times of need? Do we truly want to be converted, heart and all?

We are all loved and forgivable and this is what make the Gospel and the Atonement true."
posted at 23:46:13 on April 5, 2012 by rachp

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  • Choose to Be Alive
  • Choose to Believe
  • Choose to Change
  • Choose to Be Different
  • Choose to Exercise
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    General Conference, October 1988