Question - and connecting some dots
By anon16
12/8/2011 12:17:39 PM
So far I have not entirely messed up. I didn't go as far as I did previously, but I started to look at something, which upsets me.

I go in-between wanting to quit, and wondering why should I? See, since I'm not doing it on near as regular of basis, the guilt isn't affecting me like it used to, so I'm very out of context on it now.

I am a very selfish person. I've always been such, and now I'm working to not be. I am the only child at home, and have been for quite a while, and it's been very centered on me. I'm really working at getting out of the attention seeking behavior.

Until I had this problem, and this year really, I've never really put a lot of effort into learning about the gospel, and becoming a good person. It was me me me. I've made some progress, but like with anything, I have a long ways to go.

Last night I went on splits with the sister missionaries in my ward. It helped me put things in perspective. I always make things really complicated, and this woman who we were teaching was as well - she had all of these questions.

It helped, to hear the basics again, I'm so removed from that a lot of the time. The spirit was very strong there last night, and I loved feeling that. It gave me something to reach for.

I had my first appointment with a counselor yesterday. I am not happy about it, and really hope to make it just 2-3 sessions. At 120 a session my family cannot afford it. We're living off savings now, and money is tight.

Now, a dilemma I have. The executive secretaries daughter and I were fairly good friends, and I was going to go on a triple date with her, and another friend to a formal this weekend. Everything fell apart on this date, and I am not going after all. My feeling on it, is she made some bad choices, and going would put me in a bad spot. This is a friend that was disfellowshipped last year, and is, I'm pretty sure, right back where she was when she got disfellowshipped.

Now, she has an issue with me, because I'm not going to this dance. She knows my problem, and I got advice from her because she was in a similar spot. She is now being kind of rude to me, and I'm concerned that she will start gossiping about me. She also might be embarrassed, because she talked like she no longer had an issue(and for several months she didn't) with her particular problem, and now she does again I think.

On Sunday, the executive secretary put me off with my appt. He was going on a business trip the next day, and he looked briefly at his book when I said I needed an appt, and said he wasn't quite sure, and would call me that day. He didn't, and I got the feeling from his response that he was putting me off or something. Perhaps I'm misreading it, but every other time I've made an appt, he didn't put me off. But that was before I had to cancel the date.

My bishop specifically wanted me to make an appt for when he got back(he's been on a trip since the 1st and is back today) on either sunday, tues or wed of next week. I'm not sure what to do on this. My bishop is very busy, and I don't want to bother him.
So, would you let it go, and wait until he says something, or ask him in the next few days?

Thank you for reading this


It just slipped his mind.    
"Call him and schedule an appoinment."
posted at 12:35:59 on December 8, 2011 by Anonymous
"I am so sorry about drama. It is hard to have people involved who bring you down. I agree with anonymous. Call him. I hope things are going better. Let me know
Best of luck :D"
posted at 21:56:38 on December 10, 2011 by getthrough
"I am so sorry about drama. It is hard to have people involved who bring you down. I agree with anonymous. Call him. I hope things are going better. Let me know
Best of luck :D"
posted at 21:56:54 on December 10, 2011 by getthrough
Call your Bishop directly....    
"Your Bishop will drop everything to meet with someone like you who is sincerely trying to turn her life around....Call him and bypass the Exec Sec."
posted at 16:54:51 on December 11, 2011 by chefdalet
"I contacted him, and now have an appointment for Tuesday. And, Chefdalet, since I've been working with him for 7 1/2 months, no he won't."
posted at 17:14:23 on December 11, 2011 by anon16

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