Holy Cow
By cmck0810
10/15/2011 8:00:49 PM
Step 4 - Key Principle — Make a searching and fearless written moral inventory of yourself.
I just started step 4 and my mind is totlaly blown Iam writing down things about people that I have "loved" for as long as I have known them I finally got to the point where I cold not take it anymore but a the same time i amwriting about that here so shouldnt I be writing more of my inventory i have so much running though my head right now and I dont like it i started this program to find peace and I feel like O am further form that then when i stated and I am still not sober its been a whaping eight hours I am so sick of trying so hard i try to have faith but it seems like its never enoughh I fear everything and I cant stand living this way and i m not sure that I have written everthing dow nis by the spirit please help I cnt take this any more will there ever bee a day in this life that i can be free if this


Step 4    
"Step 4 is hard, hard, hard.

This was the real honesty step for me.

It took me 2 days in my pajamas sitting at a computer screen crying and typing for 10 hours at a time to get it out. Once I was done it was some of the best therapy that I've ever had. I saw things so much clearer than I had before.

"If you are going through @#!*% .....keep going."

Once you keep typing and get through it, I promise that you will have learned things that are totally worth having to face those demons."
posted at 23:04:10 on October 15, 2011 by maddy
4 is a process    
"I found when I had enough it was enough. Celebrate what you accomplished. Share it with your counselor, bishop or sponsor. As you go through this process the spirit will let you know what more if any needs to be addressed. Pray ask the Lord! He will either strengthen you to go on or He will say that's enough for now! "
posted at 23:43:12 on October 15, 2011 by Hero
Finding peace is like eating an elephant    
"It happens one bite at a time. If the price for peace comes easily, we would never get there. We must know the bitterness of the journey to taste the fruit of the destination. Your aim is Zion, and you are crossing the plains.

Don't give up. This step is the place where many give up. This is the part in Lehi's dream in which some fast to the iron rod in order to reach the fruit of the tree of life. There are forces against you as "they" wander in mists of darkness, and stand in the large and spacious building, who would mock you and have you believe that this step is too hard.

If you are not moving forward or if you are standing still, you are really sliding backward. Call out to your Savior and have him help you hold to fast to the iron rod. If you just call to Him, he promises that help is on the way.

Keep going, you are so close you can taste it :)

posted at 08:03:39 on October 16, 2011 by Anonymous
Hang In There    
"Hang in there. This is not an easy process and it isn't always a fast one either. Long term sobriety will happen when the time is right. The important part is to try your best. That's all that any of us can do. It will be OK. Step 4 is a hard one. Try to get through it and do step 5 as soon as possible. Getting things out helps.

You can do this!
posted at 09:47:42 on October 17, 2011 by dstanley

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"I will speak briefly of the principle of repentance. How grateful I am for the understanding we have of this great principle. It is not a harsh principle, as I thought when I was a boy. It is kind and merciful. The Hebrew root of the word means, simply, "to turn," or to return, to God. Jehovah pled with the children of Israel: "Return . . . and I will not cause mine anger to fall upon you: for I am merciful . . . and I will not keep anger for ever. Only acknowledge thine iniquity, that thou hast transgressed against the Lord thy God." When we acknowledge our sins, confess them and forsake them, and turn to God, He will forgive us."

— Richard G. Hinckley

General Conference April 2006