Why do I keep doing this
By cmck0810
9/3/2011 11:05:50 PM
I just slipped again two days ago and I cant stand the guilt and the feeling of being overwhelmed by my addiction and having to be perfect to gert back to what I need. I feel like there wont ever find a way out I ave been trying for ten years and I am sick of trying to didd deeper than I think i can dig


One thing....    
"One thing that you should keep doing is working the 12 step program offered by LDS Family Services. Keep coming to the meetings. Keep working the Action Steps. Keep a journal based on the questions in the back of each step. Keep doing your dailys, every day, one day at a time.

You will get stronger so that when those moments come, AND THEY WILL, you will have the courage to do the following:
1. Turn you back on porn web sites. Set up a good filter. Put you computer in a highly visible place.
2. When you feel those urges for sexual gratification and you want you "FIX" set up something to help you say no. ie. take shorter showers, no alone time, kneeling prayer, white knuckleing or tough it out, get a punching bag, etc.
3. Don't dwell on how many days, minutes or hours you have been sober... dwell on how the Savior can and will remove these character defects and remove this intense desire to act out. This desire is soo intense that we cannot overcome it on our own.
4. Get involved in a hobby.
5. Help others in some way that will bring satisfaction. Ask you Bishop for help in this. Sometimes, when we undertake to help someone else who suffers as we are, we end up strengthening our own network and pattern of addictions.
6. Get a sponsor, one who is strong in recovery, someone you can really trust. This does not have to be your Bishop.

Hey, I have been there and now I am here. Now I can say that the Savior who is directly concerned with you and your particular circumstances can and will save you from all of your sins. Come unto Him and He will heal you.

You are most welcome here."
posted at 11:13:50 on September 4, 2011 by 3R's
"Well the truth is, if your an addict like I am an addict, then you are going to mess up, relapse, slip up, and do things that you will regret. The other view of that is that if you are human like everyone else is human, then you are just as much a sinner as everyone else. Another way to look at it is God loves you, always has, and always will; you just need to get in touch with Him and He will help guide you to Him.

Christ came to the earth to save us all from our sins. He is working especially hard on you. Take from this trial what you can to help you grow stronger. Perhaps it is humility, patience, love, respect, wisdom, understanding, or all of the above, but you are meant to get something out of this trial. Until you do you will keep getting the same responses and end up right where you started, or worse.

Go with God and may you find peace."
posted at 16:59:50 on September 4, 2011 by blindman
Not only    
"If the 12 step program offered through the church is not enough, go to a different meeting, AA/NA. Remember we as members of the church went to AA and ask for their help and wanted to know how to be successful. So if the once a week meeting not enough go to a different one. If you expect your self to slip then you will. But if you put into play the tools you have been taught then you will not slip. When you feel like using get phone numbers, surround yourself with good things. Once you decide to go back and play in the old playgrounds you will slip. You have to change your way of thinking!!"
posted at 13:56:23 on September 23, 2011 by joyceb

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