weak weak weak but still fighting
By mike81
8/31/2011 12:14:46 PM

I wanted to write, I Was feeling again not very well, I Was able to have 4 days of sobriety but again today, I Was not able to keep my boundaries, I did not call anyone, I know it is not so good, but I will try my best tonight and tomorrow,

I don't know sometime I know what to do but I'm still doing this, since I had the relapse, it is more difficult but I'm still working on it, attending and working my step but because I was traveling the last 2 days I did only write in my journal I Did not work on my step and did not read and of course I was maybe aways from the lord those 2 days, I feel how I'm powerless and the worse or the good is I know what to do and what I need to do.

I think one of my issue is not only setting boundaries and keeping them as well, I know I have to trust and more talking and connecting with my lord.
And of course there is so much I need to discover from my past that are still hidden, and I cannot repair only the lord can take away.

I guess I have to be patient with my self but the only positive things is that , I don't have a shame after my slip today although is a break from my path recovery.

thanks for your understanding.


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