By taintedlove
8/28/2011 9:44:39 PM
Hey guys.
Im still here.
I partook of sacrament today for the first time in months.
Im still struggling but there hasnt been any sex. And the mb is getting less frequent.
Im still depressed.
For no reason.
I still cant stand to be around myself.
Been pushing people away.
I bring out the badvin alot of people.
I still think of suicide sometimes.
Ill be ok though.
Dstanley i havent forgot about you!

A book that i recommend that's fiction but it goes into my addiction is Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. I highly recommend it!

Til next time


Just hang in there and give it some time.    
"I just re read Alma 32 for the 3rd time and realize that patience and faith will yield the highly prized fruit that we hope for. I have been in recovery for a while. I still get depressed. For some reason that escapes me, I always get depressed on Saturday afternoon. I do not plan on going to a pshcho-therapist to find out why. What I have done is fill this period of time with activity - gardening, washing the car, running, visiting, what ever. Saturday night is usually guitar time for me.

I will check out that book Redeeming Love."
posted at 08:01:05 on August 29, 2011 by 3R's
stay stay stay    
"dont kill yourslef, then u really loose. please dont go?!?!? please stay....i offer my help + encouragement."
posted at 22:36:37 on August 29, 2011 by skyteamst90
Hang in there!    
"Things seem to get better with time. The temptation for me is still as strong as ever... especially if I let my mind wander. However, I have not given in to MB since 11/15/10 and I feel great about that but know that taking my eye off my recovery will result in relapse. When I feel myself slipping, I make contact with someone in recovery either online or by phone. I wish you well."
posted at 20:15:01 on August 30, 2011 by cactus
"back when i first had this problem, i used to think A LOT about suicide. i know i still have tons to get better, i know i still have problems, but at least i recover myself about thinking that way. hang in there. try to deal with depression first, maybe. that's what i did and that's what helped me a lot back then. when i'm not depresed, not thinking about suicide i can be stronger about the addiction. if you need anything, we're here for you!"
posted at 09:41:00 on August 31, 2011 by YURI
your friend    

I know what you feel, I know what it is

Remember you are a good person, god loves you and he want you to be happy
the savior is there for your he is our eternal friend.

with love"
posted at 12:23:49 on August 31, 2011 by mike81
This comforts me when nothing makes sense    
""Our God will deliver us from ridicule and persecution, but if not. … Our God will deliver us from sickness and disease, but if not … . He will deliver us from loneliness, depression, or fear, but if not. … Our God will deliver us from threats, accusations, and insecurity, but if not. … He will deliver us from death or impairment of loved ones, but if not, … we will trust in the Lord.

Our God will see that we receive justice and fairness, but if not. … He will make sure that we are loved and recognized, but if not. … We will receive a perfect companion and righteous and obedient children, but if not, … we will have faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, knowing that if we do all we can do, we will, in His time and in His way, be delivered and receive all that He has."

Elder Simmons
of the Seventy"
posted at 13:38:45 on August 31, 2011 by smallnsimple

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