By blindman
8/6/2011 11:54:22 PM
I don't even know what to say. I am really frustrated right now, but all I can give for a reason is that life sucks. My wife and I are trying to work things out. It is difficult since she wants nothing to do with the church. That spirituality that I crave is missing and that is when my addiction thrives. I hate it. I feel so alone. I know that my wife does too, but when I try to open up it seems that she just gets angry at me or really defensive. I keep thinking about how better off things would be if I were not around. I'm tired. I can't keep going like this. I feel stuck and like I am in a hole that is too deep to get out of. I just needed a place to vent right now and I didn't think facebook was a good idea.


Work on you!    
"It's becoming more and more freeing to know that I can be/do/say what I want to be/do/say/etc! So, if you want to have spirituality in your life, have it! Go to church, do all those gospel soaking things you want to do. Read the scriptures at home, or work, say your prayers by your bed, put spiritual oriented pictures up by your bedside. You do not need to have your wife with you in order to partake in those blessings of spirituality. In fact, it really should be YOU being in charge of YOU taking care of those spiritual things for YOU.
If your wife is spiritual to some extent, after seeing your example, who knows what might happen. :) ...With time, I mean!
Give your wife and marriage to the Lord."
posted at 00:58:42 on August 7, 2011 by confidence
Still hard    
"I agree with Confidence. However I also feel that its very hard to be taking steps by yourself when your in a marriage. I remember walking into church and looking at all the husbands there and just feeling alone. My husband didn't want to be there- still doesn't really want to.
I had to look at my relationship with my Father in Heaven and "weed" out those types of things.
When I stand before the Lord I want to be able to say that I did EVERYTHING that I could to stand in His presence. Desicions are based off your spouse- totally get that. But when you are at the judgement bar.... its YOU. ITs what your heart wanted and how your spirit acted here.
Even with families being such a huge part of the whole "Plan" my husband wont be standing next to me holding my hand and helping me to "talk" my way into heaven.
Usually when your wife is still upset over things like that (this is how I feel so I may be wrong) but I was still grieving and being mad. Nothing that my husband could do or say was enough. I had to be in a state of mind that I could really be listening and hearing what he had to say.
I was just shocked and humiliated to try to have conversations with my husband right after I found out. I found that writing him letters (some I gave him others were kept more as journal entries for myself) really helped. Because he could re read it. I could carefully phrase what I wanted to say. And I could be angry writing the letter and take a break and come back when I wasn't so upset.
Prayers are with you!"
posted at 01:29:13 on August 7, 2011 by faith21
you got my suuport    
"just keep trying + moving forward"
posted at 16:05:35 on August 7, 2011 by skyteamst90

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