By maddy
6/8/2011 10:30:42 AM
Truth falls from my lips like acid rain,
Antiseptic, yet do I fear the cure?
I reach for healing in the midst of pain,
But I’ll not sleep till I am pure.

I will not hide my darkness or my light,
Though I do not know my heights or depths.
For within me I have both day and night,
And shadows follow in all my steps.

But shade can give me security,
As I meet myself along my way.
And I grow strong in vulnerability,
And mend the efforts of the Day.

For the sword of truth has no hilt.
And I must hold its blade to wield it.
My conviction; my own blood has spilt,
Yet I shall never yield it.

So let the seraphim fly now to me,
And upon my mouth let them place the coal.
For the burning will bring purity,
And sanctify my yearning soul.


My voice    
"I am trying to express myself. I am trying to be the real me. This poem wanted out and I have NEVER shared my poetry before because I am too scared of what people think, but I am learning to try to speak up in a lot of different ways.

It is about how much it hurts to be honest. It is about how painful it is to admit you are wrong and broken, but how it is also painful to admit you are beautiful. It is about not being afraid to tell other people what you see.

It is about accepting who you are so you can stand before God with confidence and letting him clean you if you are willing to tell Him and yourself the truth."
posted at 10:34:15 on June 8, 2011 by maddy
Don't be scared to share    
"This is very good. I really like the imagery of the sword with no hilt. I look forward to more."
posted at 12:27:31 on June 8, 2011 by paul
While at it on the poetry...    
"My fav line from dead poets society:

Robin Williams:

"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. To quote from Whitman, "O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless... of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?" Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play *goes on* and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be? ""
posted at 12:52:41 on June 8, 2011 by ruggaexpat
"Most the time I'm kind of a cynical pseudo elitist jerk. But I'm impressed. That's really good. And I appreciate not having to endure feeling embarrassed for you. That alone is a blessing to your audience. And on to of that I got a lot out of it. I wont to read it and reread it! Really well done. Remove all bushels; please don't stop writing poetry on here. Thank you."
posted at 15:58:21 on June 8, 2011 by They speak
"Maddy so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your talent. I would love to share this with my recovery groups. Would you mind?"
posted at 18:47:43 on June 8, 2011 by Hero
Humble thanks    
"The part of me that depends on other people to feel good about myself is just eating up the compliments, so I am trying to help myself be appreciative of the support without it impacting my ideas of self worth. Funny that a little thing like this can effect me so deeply. This is a whole different kind of learning experience for me because this is actually forcing me to confront some of my codependent instincts.

So, with that disclaimer, I just want to say thank you for the encouragement and thank you for simply 'listening'.

Hero, of course you may share it. It makes me happy to think my experiences could help someone else. That is what ARP is about, isn't it? :)"
posted at 15:22:46 on June 11, 2011 by maddy

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