Messed up big time, could use some encouragement
By Helpme
3/14/2011 10:59:11 AM
The lord used to be my best friend and I have done so much to kick him out of my life. I couldn't let go of a boy in my life even though I was well aware that it would lead to more trouble. It did, a lot of trouble. I couldn't stay away from mb and porn, and me and him went all the way.
I know that the lord is there for me. I can't push him out of my life anymore and hopefully I never will again. I know I did wrong. I know that I was warned by the lord, the spirit, my bishop, my parents and my friends. I take all the blame. My heart is now soften or at least softening. Although I am broken and hurt, I know that even though is a long road ahead of me that i can be forgiven. I wish words could explain my love for the lord. I know what makes me happy and the lifestyle I have had isn't me, I can do so much better. This next while is going to be really tough, and god is always my best friend whether I treat him like one or not. I have come to realize how amazing God is. All this time I have wanted God to take this all away for me, when really he has always been there holding up his end of the yoke. God will never take away my addiction from me, but he will always be there right next to me and all of you.

I can feel satan telling me that I should just give up and how worthless this all is. It is scary that I have given him so much power over my life. Times are hard, but I know they will get better. :) they have to, right?
For men are that they might have joy.


"I'm sorry to hear that you've fallen on tough times. But you seem to have a really positive attitiude and I think that will help a lot. You are absolutely right in having hope. God IS our best friend, whether we acknowledge it or not. I hope you will be strengethed in your repentence and use this as a turning point in your recovery. Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom to put us on the straight and narrow path. Keep moving forward. You can do it!"
posted at 13:05:28 on March 14, 2011 by Anonymous
I Can Relate    
"I feel for you right now. I know how I felt when I was in your position (although I was not a member). I felt like I had screwed up one of the most important things, that I could never be forgiven, and that no one else would ever want me. I even married him, largely because I couldn't give up the sex and I thought it was the only way to make what we'd done right. I don't recommend that route. When I was investigating the church I realized that I had been forgiven. I've done even more stupid things and been forgiven of those too. God is a forgiving god. Thank goodnesss. Do your best to stop things where they are. Sex can be a very dangerous thing. That's something I have to remember as well as I am tempted to do that again. Hang in there. It is a lot of work, but it can and does get better. You can do this!"
posted at 14:20:43 on March 14, 2011 by dstanley
there is hope in the atonement    
"Sometimes I think we are too hard on ourselves. We are not perfect and that is why there is the atonement and if in the council before we came to earth and we were to follow the plan Satan proposed then I do not think we would be learning and growing in wisdom from the choices we make whether good or bad. PLuas I read a book some time ago called the miracle of forgiveness by President Kimball. It might be a good book for u to read as well"
posted at 22:49:53 on March 14, 2011 by Joshua
you can do it!    
"I agree with Joshua, Satan is so very crafty and if we are not in the right mind he can twist the bad things to make them seem good. Elder Scott said, that we should not be so hard on our selfs sin is enough punishment and we should not beat our selfs up, but the consequences are hard but sooner we repent the sooner we can feel peace. He also said when you have repented "Don't look back" at the past but only look toward to good in the future, we if have repented we can leave the past buried because god remembers the sin no more if we truly have repented, stay strong and just take one day at a time fill your life with the things of god. You can do it!"
posted at 23:56:19 on March 14, 2011 by harpoon
"I am going to pray for you, and for all on this site who suffer. The Lord is pure Light, and when we let him into our souls, it is sweet indeed."
posted at 08:59:34 on March 15, 2011 by lawrence
"I felt the same way two years ago. I can tell you what I would tell myself two years ago if I hadn't been in so much pain. You are an amazing person. Your Father loves you and will take this opportunity to bring you closer to him. Your life has perfect potential to be full of hope optimism, joy, service to others and purity. Today your potential for good is limitless. Your alive and you know what is right.

When I came back to the church and started to feel the pains of my actions although I was in agony I was grateful to feel godly sorrow and start to come unto the Father in the name of his son and through Jesus Christ atonement.

You are not alone, take care of yourself over the next few days and weeks."
posted at 18:54:57 on March 15, 2011 by Smallnsimple

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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967